I want to be improbable beautiful,
and afraid of nothing
as though I had wings
2024
Before I made the film about grief, I wrote. Those writings became my thesis.
I wrote a great deal, as if the act of putting things into words might bring them
closer to understanding. To see more clearly what I was writing, I spoke
with people; among them the writer Dirk de Wachter and the
grief psychologist Jos de Keijzer. And I read poems by Mary Oliver.
When I wrote, I imagined myself as a bird. From above,
everything looked simpler. The distance gave me perspective;
it allowed me to understand, or at least to hold things more
lightly. And then I wrote it down again, trying to catch what I
had seen from that height.
